I am worried the feelings of emptiness will flood me,
That they will engulf me into their depth,
Slow and creeping…
Flashes of anger and upset sends me further down into my feelings of anguish
Will it be all consuming?
Will it be calming?
I am worried the feelings of emptiness will embrace me,
That they will wrap me up and make me feel safe?
Will I want to climb out of it?
Or will I find comfort in the dark
I often wonder if this is really just my true self attempting to the surface,
Tired of being alone and seeking company
Do I let it out?
Or do I suppress and wish it away for another day?
July 2018- R1