Against The Grain

Going through with it,

Despite the pain and the heartache

Making a choice you know isn’t what others want for you,

Bearing down and doing what you believe to be the right thing

It’s not easy and I don’t make it lightly, but I feel as if it is my sacrifice to make

My burden to bear,

All the while, I cannot allow myself to be swept away

As parts of me begin to erode- I need to weather the waters and hold firm to who I am

Discover who I want to be

But the guilt of disappointment follows

Under the hugs and goodbyes, I know remains longing and what ifs

R1- December 2018