I am aware I should be upbeat and positive,

Radiating hope and prospect,

But, the fact of the matter is, I simply cannot,

I can’t.

Mental ill health, I hate you,

I hate you for the stress you have added to my otherwise tranquil life,

I hate you for the fact that I have to be alert all the time,

I hate you for the worry I now live with,

Mental ill health, I hate you,

I hate you for taking away the person I love

I hate you for the times I simply run out of patience

I hate you for making it so hard to show them the way

Mental ill health, I hate you,

I hate you for making me the villain

I hate you for the guilt you’ve left in your wake after the hard choices are made.

Mental ill health, I hate you,

Because it’s a battle that will never end…

R1- July 2019