I am essentially choosing to be with someone who doesn’t choose me.
Every day decisions are made and I am not it.
Where the thought of how I would feel doesn’t register or at least doesn’t change the course of the decision.
Every day I am reminded, I am no longer a priority.
Ignored and dismissed, feeling small and invisible.
I reach out and sometime lash out in order to get attention, even of the negative kind.
I ask myself why do this to myself over and over again….
June 2019- R1