Moody

Struggling to balance my head and my heart,

Feeling tired, overwhelmed and cooped up,

Floating, suspended in my thoughts and feelings,

Not sure if I’m going up or down,

Knowing the feelings will disappear in time,

But sinking deeper and deeper into them,

Thinking thoughts normally not my own,

Who is this negative person, I have become?

Letting my thoughts take over my being,

Flipping between knowing I am overthinking

Yet, not having the switch to simply turn it off,

Switching between happy and sad in a matter of seconds,

Holding on and riding it all out,

Waiting for the mood to pass,

But it doesn’t seem to go fast enough for me,

Speaking words of reassurance and positivity because it multiplies,

But sometimes the mood rolls in like a fog.

R1- July 2020