Needed Someone

I always thought I needed someone to make me happy,
I always thought I needed to find love and it would all fall into place,
I always thought I needed to keep my emotions in check in order to hide that unhappiness,
I always thought I needed to be everything my partner wanted,
I always thought I needed to be flexible, bend and not break,
I always thought I needed to take the pressure and not complain about it,
That was true strength,
But it turns out what I thought I needed was flawed,
I needed to be happy for myself, by myself.
I needed to validate myself,
I needed to be more selfish,
I needed to give myself more grace for my past choices,
I needed to do it for me,
It turns out, I could do it,
It turns out, I had it within me,
It turns out I would break patterns,
Most of all, it turns out I could be happy.
R1- Feb 2021