Lonely

Lonely

I supposed I’ve always felt lonely,
A ship without any waters,
Untethered,
Not attached to any particular place or person,
But now I am realizing that my years of independence,
Has lead me to crave connections I never forged,
Floating through fickle relationships without anyone I can trust implicitly,
Has left me lonely,
In the middle of the night when my thoughts overwhelm me,
And my feelings of loneliness wring in my chest,
I don’t know what to do,
I don’t know who to reach out to,
The cursor on the phone blinks patiently,
But it only displays my emptiness,
Just a vast field of loneliness,

May 2021- R1