What If?

I often wonder,
What if you realize I’m really not that special after all?
What if you find someone else?
What if I’m not good enough?
These emotions are fleeting and I know they have no place in our relationship,
But in moments of doubt, they lurk,
I am aware this is something I need to work on for myself,
Because you give me no indication I should be doubting,
But it doesn’t stop the what ifs from appearing,
What if you realize I’m just as fallible as anyone else,
Nothing warranting fireworks and bouquets,
What if I say the wrong thing and you suddenly feel as if your time has been wasted,
What if you don’t love me anymore?
What if?

July 2021- R1