It Hurts, But It Helps

I can’t stop thinking about you, Try as I might,
It hurts, but it helps,
I wonder what you’re doing, how you’re feeling,
I smile as I reminisce about the good times
It hurts, but it helps
I write down my feelings,
As it’s all so confusing for me, turbulent
It hurts, but it helps,
Are you thinking of me?
Do you still feel the same?
Why haven’t you reached out?
It hurts, but it helps
I try to let it go and reduce how often I think of you,
Give you space and time, because if I’m honest- I love you too much
Yet, it hurts so much, but writing helps.
September 2021-R1