Space

There is an abyss which fills in the gaps,
You asked for space,
But what you forgot is that I already do such a good job of filling in the silences,
A whirlpool of the unknown circles my head,
I sit and think of all the reasons it could be my fault,
Any sign I might have missed that your feelings have changed,
Any little indiscretions, becomes a confirmation,
Space so vast and so unforgiving it is never ending,
You asked for space,
But I am an expert at the overthinking space allows me,
The space to fill up all the ways in which I feel unworthy,
Space is a funny thing,
As much as you think it will allow us time and calm,
It also allows for anxiety and the unknown,
But space also allows for forgiveness and understanding,
September 2021- R1