Clingy

I hate the way this makes me feel,A deep yearning for you,Seeing you, being around you,It’s one thing to feel it, but expressing it Only seems to make me feel clingy,Like lint stuck in Velcro,Pulling it away but some always remains Clingy, like hot air in a cold room,Your breath lingers even though you aren’t…

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Scenarios

I do this thing,Where I envision all of the negative things you could be thinking of me An ignored text or a missed call,A shared day off not spent together,All of it makes me spiral into a flurry of mixed feelings,Maybe you’ve changed how you feel about me,Maybe I said the wrong thingMaybe I’m too…

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Blue Honda

I think of you every time I see a blue Honda,My heart begins to beat just that bit faster in anticipation,But then I pull up next to it, Knowing full well it will not be you,But the let down is still a slow, sad release,A flash of your smile hits me,Every time I see a…

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Space

There is an abyss which fills in the gaps,You asked for space, But what you forgot is that I already do such a good job of filling in the silences,A whirlpool of the unknown circles my head,I sit and think of all the reasons it could be my fault,Any sign I might have missed that…

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It Hurts, But It Helps

I can’t stop thinking about you, Try as I might, It hurts, but it helps, I wonder what you’re doing, how you’re feeling, I smile as I reminisce about the good timesIt hurts, but it helpsI write down my feelings, As it’s all so confusing for me, turbulentIt hurts, but it helps, Are you thinking…

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Doors

Some swing openSome slam shutSome creakSome don’t make a soundSome appear to be haunted Some are ever reliable,No matter; they are all still doorsWhether they are ajar or notThey will in some way openIt might not be your door or your time, But a door will open for youAnd reveal the path you were meant…

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Auditing My Life

One of the things this pandemic has caused, is a reset. It has allowed us, if we dared, to look inward and address some of the things we have been putting off. All of our lists of things we mourn doing, our hidden fears, or suppressed goals. Forcing us to assess some of the things…

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The Lies We Tell Ourselves

Life can be overwhelming at times, and lately it feels like everything is so much more acute. All of our feelings are so much more visceral and so much more 0 to 100, I don’t know if we’re willing to simply sit with out feelings a lot more. It’s all reaction based. A couple of…

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Book Review: The Death Of Vivek Oji

Have you ever had a book just capture your attention right from the offset? Be it the cover, the title and then the content? Not only is this book by an author from the LGBTQIA community and Black, let me tell you about how good it feels to get my hands on a book that…

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Resilient: Another Bad R-Word

I can almost hear the eye rolls, yes it makes a sound. What’s another word we can’t be using now? Another thing that got taken by cancel culture? I’m going to shout it for the people in the back. The concept/idea/thought/belief ( I think you get the picture ), that as Black people, we are…

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