Best Years

They say not to spend much time thinking of the past, But what if my past was wasted on those undeserving, What if I gave the best of me to someone who couldn’t love the worst of me? But what if the well of my love has been bled dry for missed trust and broken…

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Blue Honda

I think of you every time I see a blue Honda,My heart begins to beat just that bit faster in anticipation,But then I pull up next to it, Knowing full well it will not be you,But the let down is still a slow, sad release,A flash of your smile hits me,Every time I see a…

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Space

There is an abyss which fills in the gaps,You asked for space, But what you forgot is that I already do such a good job of filling in the silences,A whirlpool of the unknown circles my head,I sit and think of all the reasons it could be my fault,Any sign I might have missed that…

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It Hurts, But It Helps

I can’t stop thinking about you, Try as I might, It hurts, but it helps, I wonder what you’re doing, how you’re feeling, I smile as I reminisce about the good timesIt hurts, but it helpsI write down my feelings, As it’s all so confusing for me, turbulentIt hurts, but it helps, Are you thinking…

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Sitting in Lonely

I realised the other day that I don’t know how to simply be,How to sit in the pockets of silence in my life and let them bubble over,I avoid letting the wall ebb and flow with my griefThe losses in my life,I keep myself mentally busy so the feelings don’t catch up to,Creeping in as…

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Season

Nothing I say will ease your pain,No amount of well wishes and positive thoughts will change the past,Life has its own weird way of comforting us through suffering,But, know that it is merely a season.The darkness you feel at the moment will pass,You will begin to feel like yourself again,And you will look back at…

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Lonely

Lonely I supposed I’ve always felt lonely,A ship without any waters,Untethered,Not attached to any particular place or person,But now I am realizing that my years of independence,Has lead me to crave connections I never forged,Floating through fickle relationships without anyone I can trust implicitly,Has left me lonely,In the middle of the night when my thoughts…

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Gentle

I am sat up in bed shedding tears you’ll never see,Because you happen to be 27 miles away from me,Crying tears, Because in a moment where I should have chosen vulnerability,I chose fear,I bottled it, because I don’t want you to worry,Mostly, because I don’t know why I feel this way, Not sure why streams…

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