Loop

Sometimes I feel like I’m chasingAfter something I’ll never get, Seeking to be seen by someone Too focused on something else, Driven by a force Which doesn’t calculate me, I wait on every beck and call, Starved for attention, Feeling malnourished for their time,All the while battling the fact That I’m feeding into my insecurities,…

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Don’t Wait Till You’re Old & Grey To Forgive Yourself

One of my goals in 2022, is to continue with a personal journal consistently. This time around, I chose to go the route of using prompts; the self searching kind. One of the questions which recently came up, was What 3 things do you need to forgive yourself for? You can imagine that not only…

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I Wish Someone Would Have Told Me About Pt 6: Soul Mates

It’s engrained in us from a young age, the Prince and the princess find each other and stroll off into the sunset. The idea is lovely. Roses and petals maybe even some glitter and fireworks. Or like others claim, a jolt to the chest or electricity. But is that really how it works? Or is…

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What I Will Not Be Doing In 2022

While everyone will be making goals/targets/resolutions of the things they would LIKE to be doing, this year, I’m working in a different way. I’m making a list of the things I will NOT be doing this upcoming year. Patterns and thought-processes I want to cut out from my life, accepting things I know deep down…

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Clingy

I hate the way this makes me feel,A deep yearning for you,Seeing you, being around you,It’s one thing to feel it, but expressing it Only seems to make me feel clingy,Like lint stuck in Velcro,Pulling it away but some always remains Clingy, like hot air in a cold room,Your breath lingers even though you aren’t…

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RnR 2021 Gratitude Recap

2022 is finally closing in on us and though it already feels like 2020 2.0; one of the things we don’t want to do is shift the focus from the things we’ve lost and zero in on what we do have. It’s important to take the time to be grateful for the little things in…

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Tears

I’ve cried 4 times today,Not for any particular reasonAnd for all of the reasons,I wish I knew how to turn off the tap of my emotions,They sometimes don’t make any sense to me,The rational part of my mind tells me,My feelings are valid, to let them all out,The other side, tells me to get a…

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Thirty Seven Is Hitting Me Hard

I don’t know if it’s because COVID robbed of me of the joy of my birthday last year, but this year, I’m simply not feeling my birthday. Not feeling the best within myself so maybe this is what it’s reflecting, but nonetheless I am feeling a little sorry for myself. This week on the blog,…

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Water Down Your Neck

Trickling slowly,With big, thick droplets,Following the curves of your extended neck,My eyes stay locked in on its movement,Joining other droplets as it makes its descent,Steady and assured,Your hand on my waist, your breath in my ear,But my gaze never leaves your neck,As it gathers momentum, Along with my increasing heart rate, Passion I have never…

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Scenarios

I do this thing,Where I envision all of the negative things you could be thinking of me An ignored text or a missed call,A shared day off not spent together,All of it makes me spiral into a flurry of mixed feelings,Maybe you’ve changed how you feel about me,Maybe I said the wrong thingMaybe I’m too…

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