Auditing My Life

One of the things this pandemic has caused, is a reset. It has allowed us, if we dared, to look inward and address some of the things we have been putting off. All of our lists of things we mourn doing, our hidden fears, or suppressed goals. Forcing us to assess some of the things…

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What If?

I often wonder, What if you realize I’m really not that special after all?What if you find someone else?What if I’m not good enough?These emotions are fleeting and I know they have no place in our relationship,But in moments of doubt, they lurk,I am aware this is something I need to work on for myself,Because…

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Why?

You ask me why,Why is the sky blue?Why do we breathe air?Why does my heart beat with excitement at the thought of you?Why do I feel nothing but security when I am in your arms?Why do your lips taste so good when ours meet?Why are the stars aligned? Why is the earth round? Why do…

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I Hesitate

I hesitate, To tell you just how much you mean to me,For fear that you’ll know too much,I hesitate,To let you fully in because then you’ll be able to hurt me,I hesitate,Because being around you is a feeling I cannot describe,I hesitate,Because in all my life, I thought I had felt it all,But the feeling…

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Loneliness

It’s kind of funny how it’s only in the dead of night,Your feelings of inadequacy creep in,You feel the walls closing in on you,And everything you think you know is questioned,Loneliness is a funny thing,It robs you of the joys in your life, even if they’re small,Feelings of being overwhelmed swirl in your mind,And you…

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Running

For a long time, all I did was run,Avoid my feelings, Mask the vulnerability and put on a brave face,Show the face I thought they wanted to see,Be strong, courageous and smile through the self-doubt,I didn’t need anyone, I had myself,No one could disappoint, if I didn’t let them get close enough to,So, I kept…

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Book Review: The Death Of Vivek Oji

Have you ever had a book just capture your attention right from the offset? Be it the cover, the title and then the content? Not only is this book by an author from the LGBTQIA community and Black, let me tell you about how good it feels to get my hands on a book that…

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Sabotage

All this time, I claimed to know what I want,Now, it’s here in front of me,In all its calm, patient glory and I don’t know what to do with it,I’m so scared it’s a trap,The other shoe will drop,There will be a catch and I will realize why I’ve had my guard up this whole…

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Sitting in Discomfort

Three hundred and sixty five days and counting from the Summer of 2020. We’ve “finished” riding the BLM wave, we’ve listened to countless numbers of members of our Asian communities express their lived experiences of being verbally attacked, targeted and in the case of the mass shooting in the US- murdered. In Canada, we are…

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Lonely

Lonely I supposed I’ve always felt lonely,A ship without any waters,Untethered,Not attached to any particular place or person,But now I am realizing that my years of independence,Has lead me to crave connections I never forged,Floating through fickle relationships without anyone I can trust implicitly,Has left me lonely,In the middle of the night when my thoughts…

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