I Wish Someone Would Have Told Me Pt 4: Masculinity

Many many week’s back, I wrote a blog post regarding the idea of women texting each other when they got home, as a way to let your friends and family know that you got home safely. And my thoughts on this was the fact that the steps to remain safe are placed on women, when…

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Sitting in Lonely

I realised the other day that I don’t know how to simply be,How to sit in the pockets of silence in my life and let them bubble over,I avoid letting the wall ebb and flow with my griefThe losses in my life,I keep myself mentally busy so the feelings don’t catch up to,Creeping in as…

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Doors

Some swing openSome slam shutSome creakSome don’t make a soundSome appear to be haunted Some are ever reliable,No matter; they are all still doorsWhether they are ajar or notThey will in some way openIt might not be your door or your time, But a door will open for youAnd reveal the path you were meant…

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Angry Tears

You’ve got me here shedding angry tears,Heavy and wet,Full of contempt and hurt,Tears I never thought I would be shedding over you,Tears, because I don’t want to have to get to know someone else,The familiar dance of starting over,The new introductions and surface level conversations,I don’t want any of it,I want you,Angry tears because you…

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Auditing My Life

One of the things this pandemic has caused, is a reset. It has allowed us, if we dared, to look inward and address some of the things we have been putting off. All of our lists of things we mourn doing, our hidden fears, or suppressed goals. Forcing us to assess some of the things…

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What If?

I often wonder, What if you realize I’m really not that special after all?What if you find someone else?What if I’m not good enough?These emotions are fleeting and I know they have no place in our relationship,But in moments of doubt, they lurk,I am aware this is something I need to work on for myself,Because…

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Why?

You ask me why,Why is the sky blue?Why do we breathe air?Why does my heart beat with excitement at the thought of you?Why do I feel nothing but security when I am in your arms?Why do your lips taste so good when ours meet?Why are the stars aligned? Why is the earth round? Why do…

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Finding Courage

This blog post came about in an interesting way, so the other day I was having a conversation with a friend who then said to me, “I wish I was as brave as you, you were unhappy in your personal situation and you decided to do something about it.” For a few seconds, I genuinely…

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I Hesitate

I hesitate, To tell you just how much you mean to me,For fear that you’ll know too much,I hesitate,To let you fully in because then you’ll be able to hurt me,I hesitate,Because being around you is a feeling I cannot describe,I hesitate,Because in all my life, I thought I had felt it all,But the feeling…

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Loneliness

It’s kind of funny how it’s only in the dead of night,Your feelings of inadequacy creep in,You feel the walls closing in on you,And everything you think you know is questioned,Loneliness is a funny thing,It robs you of the joys in your life, even if they’re small,Feelings of being overwhelmed swirl in your mind,And you…

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