Lonely

The feeling of loneliness has been sitting with me for so long, we have become companions, Its comforting warmth wraps around me every night, reminding me of the void I feel, Trying to navigate the array of new emotions I never thought I would be feeling, Loneliness engulfs me and let’s me know I am…

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Slow Down

Slow down, Take the time for what it is, A moment to reset, Readjust, Realign into yourself, Slow down, You can’t rush what is coming to you, Maybe the timing just isn’t right, Slow down, Life will open up when you stop moving enough to see it, Your purpose will show itself, Slow down, February…

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Opening

Opening up to the possibility that there is good in me, Maybe it wasn’t all my fault, Opening up to the possibility that I am worthy of happiness, Maybe I don’t set the bar too high, Opening up to the feelings which flood me, Maybe I am not overdramatic Opening up to the fact that…

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Teenage Love

It’s hard to take a step back, when you’re seeing yourself through everyone’s eyes. The everlasting couple, never separating one without the other, The odd standard of longevity when in fact things weren’t what they seemed, They ooh and ahh over your love story, yet you can’t quite seem to understand what the rom com…

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Air

Air,Sharp, cold and expansive,Hitting my lungs, Air,So vital and yet so reactiveWhen sucked out of my body, Air,as it constricts and aches my ribs Air,When it pangs so sharply from the words of betrayal Air,Cold and unforgiving Air, the breath of life October 2018- R1

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Unanchored

Restless and floating,A square piece in a round hole.So many circling thoughts,With the crushing realization of no one to moor me,There are parts of me in so many places,I don’t know what I have left for myself,Who am I, except neither here nor there?In the middle,Dancing between what I want and what others want,Following the…

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Thinking of You

I spend so much time with you on my mind, Tossing, turning Deciding whether to reach out, I spend so much time with you on my mind Contemplating whether thinking of you is a good thing, Debating and then changing my mind, I spend so much time with you on my mind, Trying to figure…

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I Wonder…

I wonder if you realise the pain you cause me, When you brush me aside so callously, Every time I take the time to tell you something, And you barely pay attention, I wonder if you realise the pang it shoots through me, When I offer myself, And you barely notice or even still- shoot…

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For Myself

I need to be me…for myself I need to be open and honest with what I’d like…for myself No hiding, no filtering I need be willing to be alone in order to get there…for myself I need to believe that I’ll get there…for myself Slow as it may be…I take the steps and celebrate them,…

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My Journey Back To Me…

I begin this blog post, not as a congratulation or even as a signpost to mark where I am at, but more as a push for me to examine and motivate myself that I am still here and still persevering. Especially when it often feels like I am drowning in a sea of uncertainty and…

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