Auditing My Life

One of the things this pandemic has caused, is a reset. It has allowed us, if we dared, to look inward and address some of the things we have been putting off. All of our lists of things we mourn doing, our hidden fears, or suppressed goals. Forcing us to assess some of the things…

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Body Wars

I’ve blogged about it previously, but it’s a funny feeling stepping into myself. I genuinely feel like I am becoming me- I know I have said that previously, but I can’t stress it enough, it really is a peeling away. This week on the blog, I’m diving into the war we play around with our…

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Season

Nothing I say will ease your pain,No amount of well wishes and positive thoughts will change the past,Life has its own weird way of comforting us through suffering,But, know that it is merely a season.The darkness you feel at the moment will pass,You will begin to feel like yourself again,And you will look back at…

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The Lies We Tell Ourselves

Life can be overwhelming at times, and lately it feels like everything is so much more acute. All of our feelings are so much more visceral and so much more 0 to 100, I don’t know if we’re willing to simply sit with out feelings a lot more. It’s all reaction based. A couple of…

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I Miss You

It’s only been a few days,And I know I should be patient,Give you the space you have asked for,And while I wholeheartedly respect that,I still miss you,I see you in every pocket of my day,Making mental lists of all the things I wish I could tell you,My finger hesitates over your name on the phone,I…

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What If?

I often wonder, What if you realize I’m really not that special after all?What if you find someone else?What if I’m not good enough?These emotions are fleeting and I know they have no place in our relationship,But in moments of doubt, they lurk,I am aware this is something I need to work on for myself,Because…

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I Wish Someone Would Have Told Me Pt 2: Vulnerability

I was always shown the stoic, resilient, strong female, they are celebrated in our family (as they most definitely should be), but sometimes I wish I knew about their worries. Their fears, feelings of inadequacies, their challenges. Being pregnant with 16 children and birthing 11 healthy gives you some type of superhuman strength, but maybe…

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Why?

You ask me why,Why is the sky blue?Why do we breathe air?Why does my heart beat with excitement at the thought of you?Why do I feel nothing but security when I am in your arms?Why do your lips taste so good when ours meet?Why are the stars aligned? Why is the earth round? Why do…

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Finding Courage

This blog post came about in an interesting way, so the other day I was having a conversation with a friend who then said to me, “I wish I was as brave as you, you were unhappy in your personal situation and you decided to do something about it.” For a few seconds, I genuinely…

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I Hesitate

I hesitate, To tell you just how much you mean to me,For fear that you’ll know too much,I hesitate,To let you fully in because then you’ll be able to hurt me,I hesitate,Because being around you is a feeling I cannot describe,I hesitate,Because in all my life, I thought I had felt it all,But the feeling…

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