Water

I delay stepping into the shower, all because I don’t want to wash you off of my skin, Your lingering smell, light touches and soft kisses,The bite mark on my neck and the trace of your fingers around my collarbone, As the water runs down my back, I think of your fingers that only just…

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How Do We Practice Self-Care?

Self Care:Doing things that make you feel more like yourself. R1’s Self-Care List I’ll start of by saying that I am extremely lucky to have time carved out in order to do things which relax me or that help to simply keep me calm and relaxed. Once my daughter goes to bed around 8:30, I…

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Like No One Else

I look forward to knowing each crinckle in your nose,I look forward to all the noises you make when you sleep,To the particular way you like your breakfast in the morning,I look forward to the way you stamp your feet when you get in from outside,I want to know you like no one else, I…

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Laughter

I forgot what it felt like,to laugh,Not a low chuckle on your own,Or a small smile stretching across your face,A deep, body contorting laugh, A laugh shared with someone else,One that is felt so acutely, tears expel from your body,Laughter where you actually feel your mood lifting,Changing your chemicals,Transforming the composition in your veins,I forgot…

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Moody

Struggling to balance my head and my heart, Feeling tired, overwhelmed and cooped up, Floating, suspended in my thoughts and feelings, Not sure if I’m going up or down, Knowing the feelings will disappear in time, But sinking deeper and deeper into them, Thinking thoughts normally not my own, Who is this negative person, I…

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Words To Swallow

I look at you and feel an overwhelming rush of emotions,So many words I wish I could say, But they all pile up in my throat,Bubbling, churning and flipping over inside me, This is literally my deepest fear,Taking a chance and saying how I feel,Opening myself up, being vulnerable,How can I let you know just…

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Soon

I never expected to be so invested, so soon, I never thought I would feel love, ever again, I never thought someone would care about me like you do, I believed I was the problem, That I was incapable of love, Too emotional and dramatic, a lover of conflict, I never expected to be swept…

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I Thank You

I know gratefulness may not be common for ex’s But I wanted to take the opportunity to offer it to you, Thank you for letting me see my worth, Thank you for pushing me away in order for me to push through to my purpose, Thank you for the loneliness, it made me resilient, Thank…

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Currency

Broken promises and empty words are not the currency of my heart. I spent a lifetime waiting and anticipating for love to be an example to me, but it never came. Leaving fear and mistrust in its place,So, I only accept actions and intentions, I will not be short changed.Being present and showing me I…

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You’ve Given Up…

We used to stay up all night talking about anything and everything,Dreams, wishes, fears and plans,The air filled with promise, anticipation and most of all…loveWe promised to love, support and never turn our backs,Mutual respect and admiration,Decisions deeply rooted in love and wanting us to WIN as a collective,Feelings of rejection and hurt pride,But time…

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