Angry Tears

You’ve got me here shedding angry tears,Heavy and wet,Full of contempt and hurt,Tears I never thought I would be shedding over you,Tears, because I don’t want to have to get to know someone else,The familiar dance of starting over,The new introductions and surface level conversations,I don’t want any of it,I want you,Angry tears because you…

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Learning To Let Things GO!

Phew! It has been a year and it’s not even over yet! Life can get heavy and REAL heavy at times, 2020-2021 has definitely shown itself to be for the books. Sometimes it can seem as if one of the things I have been working on and trying my hardest to master ( aren’t we…

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Fleeting

It’s just a season,I keep telling myself that,It will not last forever,Yet, I keep having fleeting moments of worry,A flash of your smile will hit my thoughts andJust like that the tears begin to flow,You became a part of me,I let my guard down,I let you in,But, it seems as if your feelings were fleeting,Maybe…

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Season

Nothing I say will ease your pain,No amount of well wishes and positive thoughts will change the past,Life has its own weird way of comforting us through suffering,But, know that it is merely a season.The darkness you feel at the moment will pass,You will begin to feel like yourself again,And you will look back at…

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I Miss You

It’s only been a few days,And I know I should be patient,Give you the space you have asked for,And while I wholeheartedly respect that,I still miss you,I see you in every pocket of my day,Making mental lists of all the things I wish I could tell you,My finger hesitates over your name on the phone,I…

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What If?

I often wonder, What if you realize I’m really not that special after all?What if you find someone else?What if I’m not good enough?These emotions are fleeting and I know they have no place in our relationship,But in moments of doubt, they lurk,I am aware this is something I need to work on for myself,Because…

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I Wish Someone Would Have Told Me Pt 2: Vulnerability

I was always shown the stoic, resilient, strong female, they are celebrated in our family (as they most definitely should be), but sometimes I wish I knew about their worries. Their fears, feelings of inadequacies, their challenges. Being pregnant with 16 children and birthing 11 healthy gives you some type of superhuman strength, but maybe…

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Why?

You ask me why,Why is the sky blue?Why do we breathe air?Why does my heart beat with excitement at the thought of you?Why do I feel nothing but security when I am in your arms?Why do your lips taste so good when ours meet?Why are the stars aligned? Why is the earth round? Why do…

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I Hesitate

I hesitate, To tell you just how much you mean to me,For fear that you’ll know too much,I hesitate,To let you fully in because then you’ll be able to hurt me,I hesitate,Because being around you is a feeling I cannot describe,I hesitate,Because in all my life, I thought I had felt it all,But the feeling…

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Loneliness

It’s kind of funny how it’s only in the dead of night,Your feelings of inadequacy creep in,You feel the walls closing in on you,And everything you think you know is questioned,Loneliness is a funny thing,It robs you of the joys in your life, even if they’re small,Feelings of being overwhelmed swirl in your mind,And you…

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