Season

Nothing I say will ease your pain,No amount of well wishes and positive thoughts will change the past,Life has its own weird way of comforting us through suffering,But, know that it is merely a season.The darkness you feel at the moment will pass,You will begin to feel like yourself again,And you will look back at…

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I Miss You

It’s only been a few days,And I know I should be patient,Give you the space you have asked for,And while I wholeheartedly respect that,I still miss you,I see you in every pocket of my day,Making mental lists of all the things I wish I could tell you,My finger hesitates over your name on the phone,I…

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What If?

I often wonder, What if you realize I’m really not that special after all?What if you find someone else?What if I’m not good enough?These emotions are fleeting and I know they have no place in our relationship,But in moments of doubt, they lurk,I am aware this is something I need to work on for myself,Because…

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I Wish Someone Would Have Told Me Pt 2: Vulnerability

I was always shown the stoic, resilient, strong female, they are celebrated in our family (as they most definitely should be), but sometimes I wish I knew about their worries. Their fears, feelings of inadequacies, their challenges. Being pregnant with 16 children and birthing 11 healthy gives you some type of superhuman strength, but maybe…

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Why?

You ask me why,Why is the sky blue?Why do we breathe air?Why does my heart beat with excitement at the thought of you?Why do I feel nothing but security when I am in your arms?Why do your lips taste so good when ours meet?Why are the stars aligned? Why is the earth round? Why do…

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I Hesitate

I hesitate, To tell you just how much you mean to me,For fear that you’ll know too much,I hesitate,To let you fully in because then you’ll be able to hurt me,I hesitate,Because being around you is a feeling I cannot describe,I hesitate,Because in all my life, I thought I had felt it all,But the feeling…

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Loneliness

It’s kind of funny how it’s only in the dead of night,Your feelings of inadequacy creep in,You feel the walls closing in on you,And everything you think you know is questioned,Loneliness is a funny thing,It robs you of the joys in your life, even if they’re small,Feelings of being overwhelmed swirl in your mind,And you…

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Running

For a long time, all I did was run,Avoid my feelings, Mask the vulnerability and put on a brave face,Show the face I thought they wanted to see,Be strong, courageous and smile through the self-doubt,I didn’t need anyone, I had myself,No one could disappoint, if I didn’t let them get close enough to,So, I kept…

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Sabotage

All this time, I claimed to know what I want,Now, it’s here in front of me,In all its calm, patient glory and I don’t know what to do with it,I’m so scared it’s a trap,The other shoe will drop,There will be a catch and I will realize why I’ve had my guard up this whole…

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I Knew Love…

If for whatever reason, I were to lose my memory,And reliant on you to deposit all the best bits,Simply tell me I knew love,All its irrational smiles when the phone buzzes,All the softness of your voice whispering in my ear,The light fingertips along my neck,The deep laughter in my chest,If I didn’t understand the feeling,Simply…

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