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Bubbling

I teeter between telling you how I feel, And leaving it to chance, Somewhat afraid to tell you how deeply my feelings for you reach, Partially scared to speak them into existence, Because for a long time I never believed I was worthy, But, they persist, bubbling under the surface, Exciting and scary all at […]

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Happier

This may come across like a dig, But please know, I do not intend for it to be so,I am happier,Without the stress of knowing the next time you will become the worst version of yourself,I am happier,Not having to be on alert for any sudden changes,I am happier,Knowing it wasn’t my job to do […]

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Dry Eyes

The sting of suppressed feelings and emotions,Burning through my throat begging to be let out,I take a deep breath and push it further down,Rub my dry eyes to wipe away the feeling,Now is not the time to show your weakness,I sit, plaster a smile on my face and go through the motions,It’s what they all […]

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Consistency

Saying what you mean,Doing what you say,Delivering what you intend,Making and fulfilling promises,No room for empty words and hot air.I won’t be chasing after anyone,Or looking to mold someone to my will,Seeking out realness and transparency,Connection and honesty,Someone who will love me unconditionally for who I really am,No shield or walls,Someone who challenges and excites […]

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Currency

Broken promises and empty words are not the currency of my heart. I spent a lifetime waiting and anticipating for love to be an example to me, but it never came. Leaving fear and mistrust in its place,So, I only accept actions and intentions, I will not be short changed.Being present and showing me I […]

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