Moody

Struggling to balance my head and my heart, Feeling tired, overwhelmed and cooped up, Floating, suspended in my thoughts and feelings, Not sure if I’m going up or down, Knowing the feelings will disappear in time, But sinking deeper and deeper into them, Thinking thoughts normally not my own, Who is this negative person, I…

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Words To Swallow

I look at you and feel an overwhelming rush of emotions,So many words I wish I could say, But they all pile up in my throat,Bubbling, churning and flipping over inside me, This is literally my deepest fear,Taking a chance and saying how I feel,Opening myself up, being vulnerable,How can I let you know just…

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Bubbling

I teeter between telling you how I feel, And leaving it to chance, Somewhat afraid to tell you how deeply my feelings for you reach, Partially scared to speak them into existence, Because for a long time I never believed I was worthy, But, they persist, bubbling under the surface, Exciting and scary all at…

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Touch

You smile at me, Your fingers glide across my neck, A sound escapes my throat, You pull me into your embrace, I feel it deep within my gut, You pull yourself back and cradle my face, A grin spreads across my mouth, Anticipating and melting, You draw me in with your slow, deep kisses, Exploring…

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Happier

This may come across like a dig, But please know, I do not intend for it to be so,I am happier,Without the stress of knowing the next time you will become the worst version of yourself,I am happier,Not having to be on alert for any sudden changes,I am happier,Knowing it wasn’t my job to do…

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Dry Eyes

The sting of suppressed feelings and emotions,Burning through my throat begging to be let out,I take a deep breath and push it further down,Rub my dry eyes to wipe away the feeling,Now is not the time to show your weakness,I sit, plaster a smile on my face and go through the motions,It’s what they all…

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I Thank You

I know gratefulness may not be common for ex’s But I wanted to take the opportunity to offer it to you, Thank you for letting me see my worth, Thank you for pushing me away in order for me to push through to my purpose, Thank you for the loneliness, it made me resilient, Thank…

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Longing

For years I would have denied it,Suppressed the feelings and shoot you down,But as I get older and possibly more mature,I realize that that through it all, I have simply been longing…Longing for someone I can trust explicitly,Longing for someone to love me unconditionally,Longing for someone to be my person,Longing to fully let my guard…

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Burst

You caused an unexpected explosion in my heart, Ripped open the part I thought had died, While others were slow, cautious and treated me with care, You came in and made your intentions clear Flooded with feelings I never expected Emotions I thought I was no longer capable of experiencing, Smilling to myself at the…

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Consistency

Saying what you mean,Doing what you say,Delivering what you intend,Making and fulfilling promises,No room for empty words and hot air.I won’t be chasing after anyone,Or looking to mold someone to my will,Seeking out realness and transparency,Connection and honesty,Someone who will love me unconditionally for who I really am,No shield or walls,Someone who challenges and excites…

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