Navigating My Triggers

I am a runner. Nope, not the running shoes, heavy breathing and sweaty running runner. The I-no-longer-feel-happy-safe-settled-or-off running from relationships like a track and field athlete. Being home quarantined allows you time to do a lot of thinking. Some of that thinking may not be so good, but ultimately it allows you to take stock…

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Teenage Love

It’s hard to take a step back, when you’re seeing yourself through everyone’s eyes. The everlasting couple, never separating one without the other, The odd standard of longevity when in fact things weren’t what they seemed, They ooh and ahh over your love story, yet you can’t quite seem to understand what the rom com…

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Proud

I didn’t want to tell you I was struggling,I didn’t want to show you that ultimately I failed.I project this strong, confident capable person,Able and sure of themselves,Yet, I am really withdrawn, retiring and somewhat reserved,Too proud to ask for help because I will appear a failure,Ashamed of the picture of strength I display, yet…

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Why I Am No Longer Scared Of Starting Over

Change, they say is inevitable. People change, the seasons change, time is always changing…but why is it so hard to take the leap and make a massive change in our lives? We’re unhappy about things, but we’d much rather complain, but do nothing about it. Then there’s the debilitating fear of the unknown, of having…

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Insecure

Insecurities are loud they say,Trust me, I know, I’m shouting them,Busy not liking so many things about myself,I spot them easily within you,Fermenting, churning all the things I’d like to change about myself,But falling back into the same old patterns,Doubting that I am good enough,Fearing maybe I have been the issue all along,Unsure how to…

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Anger

Anger is eating away at me Not all of me, but the parts that matter. The carefree, jovial parts of me. Anger is making me bitter I no longer find joy in the things associated with you Anger is filling me up with darkness Visceral and negative Anger is making me cry on a daily…

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