The Lessons 2020 Taught Me

2020 was a YEAR! I think that’s one thing we can all conclusively say! There was literally no way any one could have predicted the turn it took for the entire planet, but while the majority of conversation regarding 2020 is very negative whether politically, socially or financially; for me- 2020 genuinely was a great…

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The Body Series: Reclaiming My Body

I began this post back at the beginning of the summer, I wasn’t feeling very confident about myself, I had recently began the tedious task of “online” dating and struggling a little bit with my self-worth. It’s amazing how words will reenter your consciousness when you’re feeling down, things you never believed about yourself surface…

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Asking For Help

When I tell you that in recent years I have come a LONG way- let me tell you. I was and in some respects still am that girl who will do it all. Herself. Alone. Struggling, but still doing it alone. I don’t know if it’s the Sagittarius in me, the 2nd child syndrome or…

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You’ve Given Up…

We used to stay up all night talking about anything and everything,Dreams, wishes, fears and plans,The air filled with promise, anticipation and most of all…loveWe promised to love, support and never turn our backs,Mutual respect and admiration,Decisions deeply rooted in love and wanting us to WIN as a collective,Feelings of rejection and hurt pride,But time…

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Lonely

The feeling of loneliness has been sitting with me for so long, we have become companions, Its comforting warmth wraps around me every night, reminding me of the void I feel, Trying to navigate the array of new emotions I never thought I would be feeling, Loneliness engulfs me and let’s me know I am…

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Easier

Distance, space and time away allows us to do one of two things, Realize how much more you miss someone or how little you needed them, I just didn’t think you would have made it so much easier, Feelings floating, memories surfacing and all the while your name on my tongue feels foreign, How smoothly…

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Opening

Opening up to the possibility that there is good in me, Maybe it wasn’t all my fault, Opening up to the possibility that I am worthy of happiness, Maybe I don’t set the bar too high, Opening up to the feelings which flood me, Maybe I am not overdramatic Opening up to the fact that…

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Navigating My Triggers

I am a runner. Nope, not the running shoes, heavy breathing and sweaty running runner. The I-no-longer-feel-happy-safe-settled-or-off running from relationships like a track and field athlete. Being home quarantined allows you time to do a lot of thinking. Some of that thinking may not be so good, but ultimately it allows you to take stock…

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Thirteen Chapters

We all have our roles within life’s story,It just so happens that yours took up thirteen chapters in my book,Thirteen chapters of dreams, hope, laughter and most of all love,We were there for each other, Through distance, age and other partners,For me, you were always my destination,We took the leap and made the plunge,We meant…

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Moving

Moving,Changing,Evolving,But we’re not on the same page, Slowly, Turning,Churning,Eroding away the person I thought I needed to be, Moving,Changing,Evolving, Stepping into the person that I am becoming, Slowly, Turning,Churning,Learning to do things for myself, by myself Moving,Changing,Evolving,Accepting that we have to make the most out of the life we are given, Slowly, Turning,Churning, November 2018-…

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