Mine

You are always on my mind,People say that, but for me, it is 100% true, As my eyes open in the morning, I immediately think about you at work,How did you sleep, are you busy, are you stressed?Are you thinking of me? You are always on my mind. I drive down the road and spot…

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Moody

Struggling to balance my head and my heart, Feeling tired, overwhelmed and cooped up, Floating, suspended in my thoughts and feelings, Not sure if I’m going up or down, Knowing the feelings will disappear in time, But sinking deeper and deeper into them, Thinking thoughts normally not my own, Who is this negative person, I…

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Dry Eyes

The sting of suppressed feelings and emotions,Burning through my throat begging to be let out,I take a deep breath and push it further down,Rub my dry eyes to wipe away the feeling,Now is not the time to show your weakness,I sit, plaster a smile on my face and go through the motions,It’s what they all…

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Longing

For years I would have denied it,Suppressed the feelings and shoot you down,But as I get older and possibly more mature,I realize that that through it all, I have simply been longing…Longing for someone I can trust explicitly,Longing for someone to love me unconditionally,Longing for someone to be my person,Longing to fully let my guard…

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Restless

Like a feather dancing in the wind, I can’t get my mind to settle on one thought, Like the waves rolling on the ocean, I think of you and I wonder if you’re thinking of me too, Like the flutter of a hummingbird’s wings, My heart picks up pace at the thought of you, Like…

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You’ve Given Up…

We used to stay up all night talking about anything and everything,Dreams, wishes, fears and plans,The air filled with promise, anticipation and most of all…loveWe promised to love, support and never turn our backs,Mutual respect and admiration,Decisions deeply rooted in love and wanting us to WIN as a collective,Feelings of rejection and hurt pride,But time…

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Brave

They call me brave for taking the chance on you, But, I was only following my heart, They call me fickle for not sticking through the tough times, But I am only protecting my wellbeing, They say I am a good person for giving it a shot, But, what I don’t say is that I…

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Opening

Opening up to the possibility that there is good in me, Maybe it wasn’t all my fault, Opening up to the possibility that I am worthy of happiness, Maybe I don’t set the bar too high, Opening up to the feelings which flood me, Maybe I am not overdramatic Opening up to the fact that…

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Navigating My Triggers

I am a runner. Nope, not the running shoes, heavy breathing and sweaty running runner. The I-no-longer-feel-happy-safe-settled-or-off running from relationships like a track and field athlete. Being home quarantined allows you time to do a lot of thinking. Some of that thinking may not be so good, but ultimately it allows you to take stock…

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