Needed Someone

I always thought I needed someone to make me happy,I always thought I needed to find love and it would all fall into place,I always thought I needed to keep my emotions in check in order to hide that unhappiness,I always thought I needed to be everything my partner wanted,I always thought I needed to…

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How Do We Practice Self-Care?

Self Care:Doing things that make you feel more like yourself. R1’s Self-Care List I’ll start of by saying that I am extremely lucky to have time carved out in order to do things which relax me or that help to simply keep me calm and relaxed. Once my daughter goes to bed around 8:30, I…

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I Love Him

I love him I love himI love himThat’s all there is the say,I love him and all the spaces in between,I love him in moments when I don’t feel good enough,I love him when he doesn’t see how I could,I love him when my longing for him becomes overwhelming,I love himI love himI love himThat’s…

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Like No One Else

I look forward to knowing each crinckle in your nose,I look forward to all the noises you make when you sleep,To the particular way you like your breakfast in the morning,I look forward to the way you stamp your feet when you get in from outside,I want to know you like no one else, I…

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Laughter

I forgot what it felt like,to laugh,Not a low chuckle on your own,Or a small smile stretching across your face,A deep, body contorting laugh, A laugh shared with someone else,One that is felt so acutely, tears expel from your body,Laughter where you actually feel your mood lifting,Changing your chemicals,Transforming the composition in your veins,I forgot…

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The Body Series: Reclaiming My Body

I began this post back at the beginning of the summer, I wasn’t feeling very confident about myself, I had recently began the tedious task of “online” dating and struggling a little bit with my self-worth. It’s amazing how words will reenter your consciousness when you’re feeling down, things you never believed about yourself surface…

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Millage

I often think about the roads that lead us to each other,The miles and miles of distance we crossed,For us to chance upon each other,The lives lived, the failed relationships,To bring us here. In the now.I look in your eyes and wonder about the heartaches behind us,For me to be so lucky to have you…

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Car Parts

I count the miles until I get to see you again,Watching road after road roll by as I get closer to you,The revving of engines match my heartbeat,As more pavement peels away in the rearview mirror,My excitement mounts, knowing I am one step closer to seeing you,Counting the miles and moving towards you,Traffic lights and…

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Night Friend

The night time is the worst,I can almost feel the loneliness begin to creep its way as soon as the sun sets,Feeling like no one cares or thinks about me,After all my duties are done and I sit alone,Surrounded by 4 walls and no one to talk to,What do I do?Who do I turn to?Who…

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Words To Swallow

I look at you and feel an overwhelming rush of emotions,So many words I wish I could say, But they all pile up in my throat,Bubbling, churning and flipping over inside me, This is literally my deepest fear,Taking a chance and saying how I feel,Opening myself up, being vulnerable,How can I let you know just…

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