When did I know?
From the first time I met you and my heart began to flutter.
So nervous, I couldn’t stop talking, because I felt comfortable and safe.
I knew, when I couldn’t bring myself to look in your direction, for fear of giving away how I felt,
I knew when you listened and you shared the softer sides of you,
I knew when you made me laugh, a deep gut laugh,
Smiling at shared experiences but also our mutual understanding,
I knew when you gave me a hug and I couldn’t help but melt into you,
I wanted more, but I played it coy and hid my face,
I knew when you sent me a message, counting the days till we saw each other again.
I felt seen for the first time in a long time,
Catered to, admired and all the while desired,
Respected and respectful
I knew when you cooked for me, your attention to detail and the way you moved so comfortably,
I knew when the look of concern and care came over you from my asthma attack,
I knew when you reached over your hands and caressed my knuckles as we drive,
You ask me how I knew, I just knew…
R1- August 2020
Illustrator: Tirza Design