I am stronger than I think,
And much more resilient than I know,
But some days,
Strength isn’t in my vocabulary,
I am emotional, sad and vulnerable,
With a strong need to be held,
To be taken care of,
To be someone’s priority,
For someone to have my back for a change,
Thirty-five years is a long time to have your shit together,
I just want to be able to fall apart and know that someone will pick me back up again,
October 2020- R1