I Hesitate

I hesitate,
To tell you just how much you mean to me,
For fear that you’ll know too much,
I hesitate,
To let you fully in because then you’ll be able to hurt me,
I hesitate,
Because being around you is a feeling I cannot describe,
I hesitate,
Because in all my life, I thought I had felt it all,
But the feeling of safety and comfort you give me is like nothing else,
I hesitate,
Because you have burrowed yourself in and I can’t remember what it felt like before,
I hesitate,
Because I want to play it cool,
All the while there are explosions in my chest,
I hesitate,
Because simply put,
I love you.

July 2021- R1